| im all alone right now, lost in this world and idk how. ppl walking by every day, wondering how it all became this way. crying out to the only one who hears, but it feels like ive been screaming for years! im now starting to realze that the only ppl you can love and trust are the ones who know you the best and are able to see through the wall you hide behind. i love every one and i try to be compassionate but sometimes idk how i can. its a GOD thing i no and it amazes me that im not holding a grudge agianst neone rightnow. i still love her to death and i will still be there to help her in any situation but idk how i got in this spot right now. we lost eachother a long time ago and dealt with eachother for such a long time. its amazing how i still want to talk to her and see her and talk to her. GOD has really been working in me with anger and i find it amazing. ive learned to take it all in and just throw it out, not letting the small things ruin my day even tho it is EXTREMELY tempting. i learned that i need to focus only on the things that are praiseworthy and glorify GOD through all things. i love my GOD and hes been so good to me. i feel like stuff is finally starting to break down and thats amazing to me. so praise the one you can truely rely on even if its hard to see that there is still something left to praise him for. |
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| ever wonder why the person who you love so much is such a burden on your heart? ever wonder why you stay with someone and you have no clue why you do it? ever wonder why the moon turns orange sometimes? ever wonder why everyone seems to be ok and your the only one whose life is messed up? ever wonder why you want to help people but you cant because your own life is messed up? ever wonder why God created spiders, snakes, and bugs? ever wonder why your best friend seems to never understand what your going through? ever wonder why you love someone but you know that they dont love you? ever wonder why it's 60 in january? |
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| O LIFE AIN'T ALWAYS BEAUTIFUL BUT IT'S A BEAUTIFUL RIDE!!!!!! |
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| PRAY is all i can say right now!!! some of my darling girls need it. i need it. we all need it. and thats all she wrote. . . |
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| OMW!!!!! im finally ungroudned and im loving it! but yea so we had the auction and chicken bbq over the weekend and i had so much fun. i got to see dave all weekend. well not today but tahts ok. so im bored and have nothing to do. o and guess what i just carved the coolest pumpkin ever!! actually my moms is better but thats ok. i did a ghost and she did a raccon popping up out of a pumpkin. I CANT WAIT FOR KUTLESS!!!! i am so gonna headbang at that concert. i wish i cud go to the pillar one also but i think my mom wud go nuts after a while. so yea britt is leaving for India soon and today i wish i cud see her but i was unable to go. pray for her if you think about it. im gonna miss her. but ne who im gonna go now. love y'all em |
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